Maybe She's Mental

I'm noticing for you because I can feel it. which is kind of the point, You can't. This is where I retreat. I am not here to do your work. What is the loving response? Only you know what's there to transform. This is cycle number three. No change has disrupted the relapse. You are not present. You have receded into hiding. Here I am telling you what you need to do. It feels icky and uneven. Perspectives can be so far apart. I know I can't remain. <3 EE

Feeling the need to write down what's present.  Let it be.  Let it out.  Let it snow?  Let it go.  Sigh.  Feeling a sadness.  After all that I have given, here I am and feeling like there's no more compassion and understanding in the relationship.  Maybe it's just not possible. Perspectives:  Each of us has our own and only by our own doing can our perspective change.  One can only be understanding and giving before it becomes exhausting and you must change your approach.  Intentions:  Layers and layers of intention are present in our beliefs and resulting actions.  I'm seeing the intentions as energetic bubbles covered with connecting matrices and moving and lighting them up with color and fire of breath actually changes what can be created. Last night I pulled Magdalen when I gave myself an oracle card reading.  The card read a message about teaching what you came to teach. Experience is a great teacher and these are difficult. Here's Lincoln in the rot

Listen to your body talk:  I arranged a date with man I met on an online dating app.  He was actually more interested in me as an interview preparation helper than a date and he told me that, but I thought, hey I'll help a guy out who said he's feeling scared and sad.  But my body had other intentions.... never made it to that lunch date... I found myself on the couch again unable to move with an aching head and upset stomach.  This happened to me almost identically a week ago when I had planned to have coffee with a different man I met on an online dating site.  This one was actually married and still living with his wife, but online I guess for friends.  I wound up on the couch all day unable to move. Hmmmmm I'm thinking my body is keeping me from these encounters.  SO I removed my profile and I'm back to life sans online dating.  Thanks to my cats who snuggle me on the couch all day long whilst I recover and to Coldplay who ended my night with tears of gratit

I love to pay attention to the animal messengers that appear in my life, the usual and the unusual. I know it is support arriving in some form.  I don't always even have to figure out what it means, just that the arrival is there and I am noticing it.  I am aware. So... a tom turkey fluffing out his feathers in an obscured area off the side of a road I frequently travel, a fox walking leisurely close to the side of the road a very short distance from my home, a dove nearly hitting my windshield, and a set of robin wings without a body in the middle of my driveway.  These are unusual. When I am unable to understand some situation in which I find myself, I consult my two favorite Oracle decks;  The Ascended Masters and Kuan Yin - Bodhisattva of Compassion. When I pulled cards for myself (usually 2), I got Master Jesus whose card had the theme of forgiveness and Brigid whose card emphasis was inner strength. I felt the support and cried knowing The River Yangtze these tw

I'm almost fully recovered from a neck immobilization.  Oh how lovely it is to have neck movement.  Even washing your hair or putting oil on your face is painful.  It doesn't matter how my pain and immobility arrived, but today I'm observing the lessons it has taught me. So many things are swirling around you in your world.  Child relationships, child health, parent interactions, lover and romantic partner 'dancing', career satisfaction, your contribution to society, dusting and making sure the cat litter is cleaned. ;)  Oh and dishes... there's always dishes! And then you neck stops working and actually doesn't allow you to sleep.  So you stop.  You must.  You are unable to even lay your head down on the pillow without pain.  And there's your portal.  Time is stopped.  You are suspended.  You are given the chance to look deeper into the conditions surrounding the onset and the relief of the discomfort.  In my case, these questions seemed appropr

I was listening to a cover of Hallelujah by Cohen and found myself contemplating what song is the most covered song.... so I asked google.  I was brought to an article of the top 10 covered songs.  The Beatles hold most of the spots with number one being 'Yesterday'.  One of the songs further down the list was 'And I Love Her'.  I hadn't heard the song in a while so I went to youtube and watched a live version of them playing the song. Simple brilliance.   When I was a college student studying abroad, I went to Pere-Lachaise cemetery outside of Paris mostly because my friend wanted to see Jim Morrison's grave.  But the most moving image I remember from that cemetery is an above ground stone grave box shaped with one vase atop and in the vase; one single yellow rose in a back bend.  Simple and moving.  No name on the grave.  Just a body laid to rest and someone added a single rose. I think of all the things we add to our lives in an attempt to make