Maybe She's Mental

I'm trying out this unconditional love thing.... man does it feel like FREEDOM!  There's a knowing in the connection.  There's a trust like no other.  There is no fear.  It's pure and raw and SO fulfilling.  I just erased ' the most fulfilling relationship I've known'.... from the end of that last sentence... WHY?  Who cares?  I don't care if I offend a parent, sibling, aunt, etc... it's the truth.   I'm tired of speaking so others don't get upset. And because I have chosen to love another unconditionally, I am BURSTING with love... not just for the recipient, but for anyone that walks into my vision.  Now I get how people in this kind of relationship make everything and everyone around them FEEL their love.   I get it and it's SO powerful!  It takes a lot of exposure and heart opening, but it's what makes life REAL! DAMN I can even feel it in my teeth!  Why do you need love in your teeth....?  Why not? :)  That...

I don't know if this is normal for other people, but in one single day for me, I have many personal encounters with people.  Today... I accepted a gift from a co-worker who was handing off YEARS of work she had put into teaching young people.  She explained all the lessons which she had nicely arranged in folders with proper headings.  She also offered to assist me in transferring the information to the kids that I might encounter.  She gave me a HUGE chunk of her life.... a passion of hers... she trusts me with her passion. Not much later, I got a call from my best friend in Alaska.  She was starting her day and was feeling down.  She was deeply missing the foster baby that was removed from her home to go to extended family members a couple weeks ago.  She had fallen in love with the little baby girl and she really feels a BIG desire to have a family.  She was calling me to hear my voice and find a way to smile when she felt such a weight in ...

Vacation... I'm trying out a couple kinds of vacations this summer.... one, leaving my country alone and meeting up with a bunch of strangers on a beach and the other taking my loved ones to a lake and spending some time alongside a rock bottomed lake.... Both have great potential, but mostly my vote goes to the former as the most vacation-like. You would think strangers couldn't be loved ones in a matter of days, but this is not the case in my vacation situation.  It's quite the phenomena.  Heck... actually I knew instantly in some cases that they would be loved ones. I found on the second vacation expedition that the rocks were my favorite hanging out spot.  There are rocks all over the place here and I found sitting in them, walking through them, or swimming over them was the calmest most relaxing time of my vacation.  What is it about them that brought me present?  I'm sure the sound of the waves contributed, but pretty much I would just enjoy seeing thr...

You don't see teeter totters much any more on playgrounds.. the fulcrum and lever contraption that probably sent too many little sisters flying through the air and to the Emergency Room... BUT we still see them in our lives and understand the concept COMPLETELY if we have ever been flung or (almost worse) pounded to the ground on a teeter totter. You're SURE of a decision... you're so happy and free because the decision is behind you... and then BAM... something changes or something comes back in the picture and you go from flying high status (because face it, the TOP is the BEST part of the teeter totter) to somewhere in the middle or maybe even back on the ground - hopefully it's not the GRAND SLAM where your bottom gets a bruise. And you are back in deliberation.  How did I feel so certain and then one little change and my resolve goes out the window.  I KNOW what it is that I need to decide, but why is it so hard to get out of the patterns that are comfortable? ...

I made myself a salad tonight (Greek even though I had two helpings of Greek salad today at our International Lunch event at work) and sat outside in the lovely evening sun to BE in my backyard.  I was facing my small fleur garden which I am just getting to know as I just acquired it this year and have no idea what's planted there except the lavender plant I placed there early this spring (she's doing splendidly I might add).    I also placed a fairy statue (in honor of my Nana) and a bird bath (a housewarming gift from a dear friend).  The rest of the growth I have NO idea what it was intended to be. I think there are some day lilies and I know there are a couple of maple tree seeds that took a hold that need to be extracted, but some of the other growth, I just can't tell if it's fleur or weed.  This happened to me one of the first years I planted a garden... I thought for SURE what was coming up was peas, oh and they were flourishing, until they got to be r...

I have been thinking about doing this for a while and now I finally have.... taken pictures of the gorgeous images I see when I walk into work every day.  They will speak for themselves, but I will tell you where they are. Lighting in the foyer on street level. This is what I see when I look up whilst waiting for an elevator. Mr. Owl on the top molding of the wall street level. Above the elevator doors sits the two dragons and the tree. The full elevator door on the street level. Chandelier and ceiling intricacy- street level.  Celtic knots inside the elevator cars on the ceiling. The Up and Down arrows - my floor. A vent with oil lamp and owl overlooking- my floor. Owl carving on ceiling molding - my floor. Genie's lamp and book on ceiling molding - my floor. A large vulture type bird on the ceiling molding - my floor. Marble bathroom stalls - my floor. Art on the building across the courtyard  through t...

A shredded beet heart! <3 I have only ever had beets cooked, but TODAY I tried them in the buff (the beets not me)! :)  They are incredibly delicious!  Not only do they taste so pleasing, but the patterns internally are so fun to discover (as I was using my peeler to shred the beets).  They are just a BLAST to prepare!  I really am not sure why I haven't discovered them in the past.... When I was purchasing the beets at the grocery store I realized something about my food preferences as well.  I got EXTREMELY excited in the produce section - the leafy green vegetable section to be precise.  I looked at the wall of veg and conjured up ideas of Napa cabbage wraps and herbed melon smoothies.  'Oh, how could I use that celery root?  I don't think I've tried that before, I will have to get that some time....' was actually a thought pattern I remember having. Yes some men get giddy at the meat counter, but I feel my pulse quicken with excitemen...