Maybe She's Mental

 Alice in Wonderland ride at Disneyland... crazy story?  maybe I don't want easy, I want crazy!  I think this has just become the motto of me!  I can't decide if I am upset or proud that my sanity is in question.  Crazy, like all labels, is relative. Crazy for Lady Gaga is certainly different than crazy for Martha Stewart.... Can you imagine Martha in a meat suit? She'd be more interested in seasoning it and searing it... ha! Crazy love:  YES!  Crazy stinky:  No thanks.  Crazy brilliant - YES please!  Crazy tension... well you get my drift... Mentally ill... another difficult one to put in a box.  The Special Olympic athletes that I have experienced are the happiest people around! I'm pretty sure we all have our own definitions of crazy and our own levels of craziness.  Only when you really don't care what others think of you do you reach your 'authentic crazy'. :)  This version I accept with joy!

This is a promise.  You will get off-track.  You will get pulled into the drama.  You will get caught up in your daily existence.... until.... something major pulls you back.  Something major rocks your core.  Maybe you don't ask why. Maybe you have no desire to know the reasons.  Who knows why major rocks shift?  We could never understand the significance. But I do know this:  Major things bring people closer.  Major things bring cleansing tears.  Major things bring out the compassion in friends, family and acquaintances.  Major things bring us back to our foundations.... that of love, support, and friendship.  Major things challenge us to trust..... trust in something we can't comprehend. When you're numb and in the midst of something major, remember to breathe.  "This too shall pass."

My daughter(5) brought home a few drawings this winter of a snowstorm.  She used every colored marker and crayon that she could find and swirled them round and round in a tornado-like fashion.  My day, body, mind, essence, direction, heart feels like this right now.  Here's my version of her drawing done in the ever professional "Paint" program. :) Yes I know, I didn't stay on the paper.. my lines got kind of crazy.  I was trying to make it as close to the original as possible.  :)  You see, I ran into a mindfulness teacher yesterday and he sent me a link to a talk given at a very successful business which taught mindfulness as a road to happiness.  This talk highlighted mindfulness, self-knowledge, and daily habits as the road to personal happiness and ultimately to world peace.  Chills! So the picture of the snowstorm above... is me... trying to figure out what to do with this information... what is my contribution to world peace?  I re...

Intuition Strikes!  I love it! I stopped by my favorite shop for locally made goods including my fav lotion stick.  A friend had requested one after seeing mine so I thought I would stop in and get one.  After I picked one up and placed it on the counter while my friend who works there was telling me about the variety called 'Gin and Tonic' :), I felt the need to get another of my favorite kind (Good Karma Blend).  I got two, paid in cash, and left. I wasn't sure who that second one was for, but when the time was right, I would know! About an hour later, I was waiting for a colleague outside her office and talking to a volunteer who was changing the bulletin board in the office when the recipient became clear....  This volunteer was named Bev (she said her name means Eager Beaver... hahaha).  She was telling me how when you get old, your fingers get really dry in the winter and they can crack and bleed.  She had a big band aid on her right thumb ...

I finally purchased and installed a wifi router in my little old house in my little small town in middle America... It was at the persistent urging of my 10 year old daughter who really wanted access to all the possible downloads on iTunes that really did it for me.... well no, maybe when guests came to spend the night and realized to their complete dismay that 'What?  You don't have WiFi?' :)  Hahahaha! I think I was proud that I didn't need to have it at home, but that's because my phone had a data plan and my computer plugged directly into my router so I had constant access, just not through wifi.  The other reason I was hesitant was because I didn't want to be bathed in excess waves all through the day at work and then at night as well! Tis time, I said... tis time for wifi.  My friends who shook their heads at me will be smiling today... :) Tschuss!

I'm 4 days away from visiting my dear friend in Montreal.  I have not known her for a full year yet, but I feel like part of her family... the long lost sister variety.  I'll be walking into a foreign land... literally... Canada... but not the English-speaking variety... the French side.  Her children speak French.  The signs in the airport will likely be in French.  She lives as a self-employed artist - fashion designer.  She lives in an apartment building in the big French city.  How will I communicate with her darlings... through hugs?  Through smiles?  Maybe we will teach each other our language... and little by little we will speak through words.  In some ways I feel like I will be walking into home.... the home of my sister.... I'm pumped to meet her brother and her friends, see where she dances her cares away on Friday nights, and see where she spends her days..... AND I'm excited to celebrate HER on her BIRTHDAY!  To prope...

I got a real-live mix CD from a friend in the mail recently... like right around Valentine's Day... AWESOME!  Only problem is that the kids slip it in and out of the karaoke (where did that name come from anyway?) machine and now it skips... just had to shut it down.  OH well... maybe my car stereo can take a worn CD. :)  I will try that out tomorrow! Such a beautiful coating Ah, but on to my real reason for this post (the last of Feb 2014)... excuses.  I just want to note that I'm not looking for anyone to be perfect.  Heck NO!  I don't expect that of myself nor would I expect that of anyone.  When I give a suggestion on how to approach something, it is merely (one of my favorite words) because I hope to provide the recipient with some kind of advantage the next time they encounter this situation.  I do not feel like I need to hear a reason behind why they acted or didn't act as they did... I just want to provide words while they are availa...